[00:00:00] Mansion - NF/Fleurie
[00:00:00] Insidious is blind inception
[00:03:00] What's reality with all these questions
[00:06:00] Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in
[00:13:00] Broken legs but I chase perfection
[00:16:00] These walls are my blank expression
[00:19:00] My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[00:22:00] And it's lonely inside this mansion mansion mansion
[00:31:00] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in lyrics
[00:34:00] They're all over the place
[00:36:00] There's songs in the mirrors
[00:38:00] Written all over the floors all over the chairs
[00:41:00] You get the uncut version of life
[00:43:00] When I go downstairs
[00:44:00] That's where I write when I'm in a bad
[00:46:00] Place and need to release
[00:47:00] And let out the version of NF you don't want to see
[00:50:00] I put holes in the walls with both
[00:52:00] Of my fists 'til they bleed
[00:54:00] You might get a glimpse of how
[00:55:00] I cope with all this anger in me
[00:57:00] Physically abused now that's the room that
[00:59:00] I don't want to be in
[01:00:00] That picture ain't blurry at all
[01:02:00] I just don't want to see it
[01:03:00] These walls ain't blank I just think
[01:05:00] I don't want to see 'em
[01:06:00] But why not I'm in here so I might as well read 'em
[01:10:00] I gotta thank you for this anger that I carry around
[01:13:00] Wish I could take a match and burn this
[01:15:00] Whole room to the ground
[01:16:00] Matter of fact I think Ima burn this room right now
[01:19:00] So now this memory for some reason just won't come down
[01:22:00] You used to put me in the corner so you could
[01:24:00] See the fear in my eyes
[01:26:00] Then took me downstairs and beat me 'til
[01:28:00] I screamed and I cried
[01:29:00] Congratulations you'll always have a room in my mind
[01:32:00] But Ima keep the door shut and lock the lyrics inside
[01:36:00] Insidious is blind inception
[01:39:00] What's reality with all these questions
[01:42:00] Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in slept in
[01:47:00] Slept in broken legs but I chase perfection
[01:52:00] These walls are my blank expression
[01:55:00] My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[01:58:00] And it's lonely inside this mansion inside this mansion
[02:04:00] Yo my mind is a house with walls covered in pain
[02:07:00] See my problem is I don't fix things
[02:09:00] I just try to repaint cover em up like it never happen
[02:12:00] Say I wish I could change
[02:14:00] Are you confused
[02:15:00] Come upstairs and I'll show you what I mean
[02:17:00] This room's full of regrets just
[02:18:00] Keeps getting fuller it seems
[02:20:00] The moment I walk in to it's the same moment
[02:22:00] That I wanna leave
[02:23:00] I get sick to my stomach every time
[02:25:00] I look at these things
[02:26:00] But it's hard to look past when this is the room
[02:29:00] Where I sleep
[02:30:00] I look around one of the worst things
[02:31:00] I wrote on these walls
[02:33:00] Was the moment I realized that I was losing my mom
[02:36:00] And one of the first things I wrote was
[02:38:00] I was shot with a call
[02:39:00] But I should just stop now we ain't
[02:41:00] Got enough room in this song
[02:42:00] And I regret the fact that I struggled
[02:44:00] Trying to find who I am
[02:46:00] And I lie to myself and say I do the best that I can
[02:49:00] Shrug it off like it ain't nothing like
[02:51:00] It's out of my hands
[02:52:00] Then get ticked off whenever I see it affecting my plans
[02:55:00] And I regret watching these trust issues eat me alive
[02:58:00] And at the rate I'm going probably
[03:00:00] Still be there when I die
[03:02:00] Congratulations you'll always have a room in my mind
[03:05:00] The question is will I ever clean the walls off in time
[03:09:00] Insidious is blind inception
[03:12:00] What's reality with all these questions
[03:15:00] Feels like I missed my alarm slept in slept in slept in
[03:20:00] Slept in broken legs but I chase perfection
[03:25:00] These walls are my blank expression
[03:28:00] My mind is a home I'm trapped in
[03:31:00] And it's lonely inside this mansion inside this mansion
[03:37:00] So this part of my house no one's been in it for years
[03:40:00] I built the safe room and I don't let no one in there
[03:43:00] Cause if I do there's a chance
[03:45:00] That they might disappear and not come back
[03:47:00] And I admit I am emotionally scared to let anyone inside
[03:51:00] So I just leave my doors locked
[03:52:00] You might get other doors to open up this doors not
[03:56:00] I don't want you to have the opportunity to hurt me
[03:59:00] And I'll be the only person that I can blame
[04:01:00] When you desert me
[04:02:00] I'm barricaded inside
[04:04:00] So stop watching
[04:05:00] I'm not coming to the door
[04:07:00] So stop knocking stop knocking
[04:09:00] I'm trapped here
[04:10:00] God keep saying I'm not locked in
[04:12:00] I chose this
[04:13:00] I am lost in my own conscious
[04:15:00] I know that shutting the wall down ain't solving the problem
[04:18:00] But I didn't build this house because
[04:20:00] I thought it would solve 'em
[04:22:00] I built it because I thought that
[04:23:00] It would be safer in there
[04:25:00] But it's not I'm not the only thing
[04:27:00] That's living in here
[04:28:00] Fear came to my house years ago I let 'em in
[04:31:00] Maybe that's the problem
[04:32:00] 'Cause I've been dealing with this ever since
[04:34:00] I thought that he would leave but
[04:36:00] It's obvious he never did
[04:37:00] He must picked the room and got
[04:39:00] Comfortable and settled in
[04:41:00] Now I'm in the position
[04:42:00] It's either sit here and let him win
[04:44:00] Or put him back outside
[04:45:00] Where he came from but I never can
[04:47:00] 'Cause in order to do that I'd have to open the doors
[04:51:00] Is that me or the fear talking
[04:52:00] I don't know anymore
[04:55:00] It's lonly inside inside
[05:06:00] It's lonly
[05:08:00] It's lonly oh yeah
[05:13:00] It's lonly inside this mansion